Adik
Tuesday, June 27th, 2006It’s prohibited but we tell ourselves and others that it’s not dangerous. We risk taking a trip in broad daylight but we must seek out the dank, dark corners in search for the best stash. I leave behind all valuables and take only cash. The money is never enough because I find myself wanting more everytime. At first, it was just 50 bucks a pop. Just for kicks, we tell ourselves. Many good trips followed and too easily the 500 bill melts in less than 20 minutes of foraging.
The shirtless man smiles his toothless grin as he recognizes our plates. He waves us to a "safe" area to park. It’s right beside the barangay patrol office — I really cannot say if that made the area safer or even more dangerous for us. Forewarned, I removed the car stereo (just the face plate) and hid it in the deep part of my bag. We walked briskly and in single file. In our earlier visits, we have made the rounds but now we know the best dealers. We did not pay attention to the heaps of cheaper merchandise along the streets but went quickly and deeply into the maze of stalls. Hurriedly, I check out the burn quality — the start, the middle and the end should go down smooth and easy. Go for gold. The blue ones will send you to a violent mood. There’s rarely any haggling — only when you wish to buy in bulk. Money and plastic bags change hands — deal is done.
There’s always guilt involved and I have made easy promises. But continued exposure leads to repeated use and resolutions do not stand a chance.












